Because of this amazing little boy, I have been thinking A LOT lately about some pretty tough decisions. I took this picture the last week of our 2 week break right after Crawford got a haircut. We went to Mc Donald's afterwards to eat lunch and I realized how much I LOVE getting to hang out with him. Don't get me wrong, it's really difficult some times, but there isn't ANYTHING I would rather be doing. It's not going to be possible for me to stay home with him all the time, but I am really considering looking for something to do part-time next year. I just realize that these are days that I'm never going to get back, one-on-one time with my little man, especially when we decide to have another baby. Even thinking about looking for something else and leaving where I'm at is difficult. I am comfortable and love where I work. I also LOVE Marisa who has been with Crawford since he was 10 weeks old. Crawford also LOVES Miss Marisa even more than I do. When I drop him off in the morning, I know that he is well taken care of and loved. I also love that I can walk down the hall and just look in the window to see that he's happy and playing. But.... like I told Marisa and Brianne, I can't stay just because I love them so much!
Something else that plays into this decision of looking, is where will Crawford go? This is so hard because he won't just be down the hall from me and will Crawford and I feel as comfortable as we do now with Marisa and Brianne?!
And lastly, which is something that plays into the other two decisions is where will we live?! When we orginally moved to Austin, we figured we would be where we are now, for a year, MAYBE two. When we move this summer it will be THREE!!! Not what we had planned, but then again, when we make plans, that's when God laughs :) We really like this area, but it's pretty high-priced out here. If we move somewhere else, we can get so much more for our money. These are ALL three very big decisions that are interdependt on eachother and ones that I am praying about constantly, because if I don't I will literally worry myself to death! I need to remember one of my favorite verses here, 1 Thes. 5:16 "be joyful always, and pray continually!" I have realized lately that these decisions have consumed me and I'm not living as joyfully as I should be. So here it is, I'm turning it over! I will be proactive but I will NOT let it consume me like I have been. I have way too much to be joyful about right NOW!!!
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